What am I running
from? Why do I have such wanderlust? Why
cant I stay in one place and not get antsy? I thought about my child hood. Ever
since my parents divorced when I was 7 my mother rented numerous homes. We even
lived on a commune when I was 12. We never had roots. So, you would think I would want to plant
roots as soon as I could when I was old enough to take care of myself. I am now 56.
This is my first home I have owned.
It is perfect for me, I love it. It has everything I could want. So why
the RV? I am on vacation this week, I
have been reading books about people that have hiked the Appalachian Trail, the
PCT and moved into the woods. I am fascinated with the outdoors and people that
thrive out there. I myself never plan to hike for 4 months in the wilderness. I
do like to do day hikes and am an amateur nature photographer. I want the RV to be able to get close to
nature but be able to run back to a room with a kitchen and bathroom and lock
out the bears and mountain lions. While on vacation I am also watering my dear
friend Katherine's garden and porch plants.
I was there today and I just love this garden. While there the Orioles
were yelling at me. As I watered I was envious of how beautiful every little
bit of it was. I have known Katherine for years and have watched her nurture
this beautiful space.
That’s what it is. Nurture. I don’t have the nurture
gene. My attempt at a vegetable garden was abysmal this year. I just am not a
gardener I told myself. Easier to buy my veggies at Wegmans. I do a very good job of taking
care of my birds. I have a wide assortment of birds at my feeders. If I nurture
a garden then I will be tied to my yard and watering all summer. I still plan
on an RV. I just need to know my limits. Maybe travel south in the winter? I
also don't plan to be a full timer. I love my home base. Travel only short
stints in the winter? Who will feed my birds when I am gone. So many things to
think about. To decide.
In all of this, I
did have one take-away. Enjoy everything Just as it is. I'm so busy researching RVs and planning,
planning. I need to enjoy today just as it is. To watch the birds from my
porch. To relax, have a cup of tea and just be.
